Calming Down
In which we are groping for an appropriate way to
relate to each other
I think things are calming down with J. It seems
like our conversations are focusing more on the mundane day to day things about
life rather than about how excited we are to be connected
again.
It's really not an option to run
off and have a wild affair or anything like that. We both love our spouses, and
neither one of us is the impulsive type.
On the other hand, to find someone
with whom you are on the same wavelength, and with whom you have that degree of
communication and connection is a rare thing in this life, and not something to
treat lightly. So we are not willing to be separated again, but both of us are
determined to be friends forever.
And
if our feelings fall into the category of love, that is all right, as long as
our actions don't fall into the category of adultery, which they won't. We are
unfortunately not teenagers any
more.
Yet, I have been thinking a lot
about how much of the teenager is still alive in the middle aged grandmother.
For all our apparent maturity and the dismal deterioration of our bodies, we are
still the exact same people we were when we were 15 and 16. I think that fact
is not really given enough room to live in our reality. Which is a sad thing
also.
Posted: Sat
- April 26, 2003 at 11:46 AM